Memories

After so many months this feeling came to me once again. This is one feeling I like (even though its a pain). However I don't want this. I am trying to get over things (never know when it will happen). I always wanted to talk about this but still don't want to talk about it.

Suddenly today my people pushed me into this once again. My colleagues talked about it. I got a call from a friend and she talked about it. N the worst part is I got this special call which never mentioned a word about it.

This thought was always there in one corner of my mind. I am struggling to push it deep into dark. But today it once again came out. In the past few months I never felt this hard. I felt like sitting in one corner and crying but forced myself not to. I have promised myself that I will never cry for this. However all my past memories started flowing in. Good n bad... hmm... don't know what to write here. Its very difficult to pen down feelings.

Now I am wondering how long it is going to take me to once again push it back. Why do people have to do this to me??? I know they were trying to do something good to me. But I know this will never happen. Things have never worked out the way I wanted it to.

I am not getting into that verecthi mode. This is just part of life n it happens to everyone. I very well understand this. However it is not easy to accept the truth.

I think only time can heal the pain...